First let me state something, least i cause any offense at all. This journal is to state my apologies to people i have wronged, haven't talked to in along time, or caused strife needlessly. I want to say I'm terrible sorry for every action taken, some were through my ignorance and other even if i had good intentions only caused terrible scars.

I Just want to say I'm deeply sorry, and I know now you can't reverse the actions taken in the past. It's just something that takes time to heal. I had some a few incidences where I had a hacker, (aka left my computer open and let my lil brother screw with my stuff) I took the blame for it as it was my fault to leave it open in the first place. I just tried to connect with a few people here to make friendships... though when things just gone down hill most of which I think were my fault and i deserve the for it.

Sometimes i wonder a whole bunch of what if's but that doesn't help any or trying too hard take away the guilty stained that shame you carry in your heart.
Though, I'm trying to be nice person and understand others, but that time has passed and things change that much is true.
(I'm terrible making journals i haven't made one in so long so bear with me please.)
In this message all i just want to say is sorry and I know words cant make up the actions on my part. I just hope they mend and there are no hard feelings left afterwards. I sincerely wish that. Some of these words would disappear, or actually reach their destination.

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In other news  It think it's time i actually start posting art i have, some of which that have shown growth and promise and  those that have not. I have been lurker for too long. I think if want to get better i cant hide and do it in the darkness. I want to stand out and be accepted in a good way, not as a a jerk. As I think that most of which  just myself talking. Hopefully things will look up from here on out, will be something to look forward to.
I want strive to be an artist in my spare time and I'll my best doing so.